So, as you can see, the animation is not finished, so what happened?
I overestimated myself
I have so far always been quite good at time management and even if I had to cram in a 80 hour week working on my assignments I always finished them and I always did really good. As you can see, this didn’t work that well this time. I have completely overestimated myself. Due to health reasons I missed a lot of lessons this term, spending several days in hospital and having to take many rest days, preventing me from immediately catching up the missed courses and with other assignments coming up I used my ‘being well enough’ time to work on those, pushing the animation practice assignment further and further back.
Looking at moodle made it all seem so easy, I had a list of things I had to learn and several tutorial videos from the lectures. I had a rough idea of the things I would have to look up myself as well, like texturing in Substance painter and how to use the Bifrost Ocean Simulation System that I wanted to use for the water.
When I started I made good progress, I had already modelled my characters in Zbrush a few weeks back, had the storyboard and my ideas. I was sticking to my time schedule and it looked like I would be able to finish if I started putting in more hours.
Then disaster hit. My grandma got very ill and I had to go back home to visit her as no one knew whether she would make it. That almost cost me a weeks worth of work so I would have to put in extra hours to make the deadline so I started pushing myself.
I quickly realized that the tutorials that were put onto moodle weren’t sufficient enough, as I had missed all the context from class and the bits in between and some tutorials seemed to miss parts that were important to proceed or weren’t detailed enough to work properly so I had to look for alternative ways which cost me more time that I didn’t have and the estimated one day of rigging for both characters quickly turned into 4 days of rigging for one character and as you can see, I haven’t even finished that.
Putting in the extra hours also didn’t work quite as expected. I thought I would be able to simply do extra hours each day like I did last year where I would work up to 14 hours each day and I would be fine. I was not aware though that I wasn’t as stable as I thought I was. I had gotten a lot better since earlier this year and my hospitalization, so I thought I could do it, but the extra stress got to me immediately and my body completely shut down, resulting in a suggested hospital visit by my GP which I had to decline because I had to finish the assignment and I knew I wouldn’t be able to do that from there. So this resulted in me having to work from my own bed, trying to get as much done as possible in the little time I had until I was too exhausted to work.
SO, here we are. The assignment isn’t done and that is really bugging me because I had all these cool ideas for it and I am really happy with what I have so far and I know I can do better. What ultimately led to this point was my own poor time management and outside influences that I had no control over.
What I have learned from this: My health is not invincible. I may be fine next year, I may not be. But I have to plan more in advance now in case something goes wrong at some point so that even when it does, I still have enough time to finish my assignment without risking my health and stressing myself out to a point where I can’t do work anymore like it happened this year. Also, I have to make sure to try and catch up immediately if I miss a class so that it doesn’t come to haunt me later and I lose all context.
What happens to the unfinished assignment: I am planning to finish it during the summer break. I really like what I have going on and I really want to finish it as I think it will be a great addition to my portfolio and an opportunity to prove myself that I can actually realize what I had planned and finish what I have started to the standard that I have set myself.